Thursday, July 15, 2010

Something I sent my staff and elders part 1

The following is the first part of a paper called "my heart right now in one page" that I sent to the staff and elders this week. I will divide it into three installments over the next several's part one:

Over the last nine days, I have had the opportunity to hear nine sermons, three devotions, two intensive leadership presentations, and two days of vision casting conversation with the elder team. These have been accompanied with some great meal conversations, daily quiet times and at least four occasions of corporate musical worship. My heart is full. There is no way to describe the spiritual place I'm in right now in complete detail; but I can tell you that there are some major themes that the Spirit has laid on my heart with one or all of the experiences listed above.

First, I'll begin by saying that I want to be a dangerous pastor leading a dangerous church. Not dangerous in a stay-away kind of way (as you would a lion in the wild), but dangerous in a power-greater-than-me awareness (like someone handling explosives). I'm sure this scares some who think I'm already wild-eyed in my approach to ministry, but I want to have the kind of ridiculous faith that only a true disciple of Jesus could have. I want to preach dangerous sermons that deeply offend while they simultaneously attract. Honestly, I want to be a martyr and I don't even know what that truly means or how that is played out. I just want to have one eternal conversation with an apostle that ends with "me too". I want to give a crazy amount of stuff away and learn not to love it any more. I want to be a catalyst for a revolution of extraordinary giving, serving, and evangelizing. And I want to boldly challenge thousands of people to do the same. I'm short of this by far I fear...but this is what my heart feels. The passage from Acts 5:11-16 describes in a biblical way the kind of church I want to lead.

More to come...


Anonymous said...

Ready to be led closer to the Lord. Challenge us, inspire us, lead us.

Melissa said...

Wow! What an amazing testimony to how God is working in your life, Mike! We are so blessed to have a man with a heart like yours leading us at Eastview. I cannot wait for you to step on my toes! :) I will be praying for you as you embark on this difficult journey. May God protect your heart (and your family's hearts) from the discouraging words others will have for you when you offend them. Love ya, Mike!


Anonymous said...

Been waiting for this... "me too"

Anonymous said...

I think that the holy spirit speaks to us in the most unexpected ways. I was reading this blog/comments when I noticed that the word verification was "beled" (be led).

And then I read your "third part" blog and the word verification was "shine".

Am looking forward to being led in the hopes that God may shine through me and my church!